I so often feel lonely, as I assume most people feel. One thing that I find comforting though is thinking of all my friends, and how they too sit alone in their rooms. When we think of our friends we usually think of them when we're hanging out, when they're interacting with others and joking around. It's always good to remember that they go home and sit alone and focus on their phone, computer, or whatever distraction they prefer. Ever person you've ever met has been alone in a room before and has thought "oh... I'm all by myself".
Isn't that weird to think about? Your coworkers are alone too. Your church friends, your classmates. I just find it to be a very humanizing thought. It's so easy to just wallow in self pity, thinking you're all alone and have no friends while it seems everyone is posting them hanging out with other people all the time. But at the end of the day, these people are going home, just like you, to be alone.
Or maybe not, what do I know. I guess I wouldn't know how often they're actually alone if I'm not hanging out with them.
Anyways, my travels went well. Korea was a mess I am looking forward to for getting when Alzheimer's inevitably steals away my memories, but I really enjoyed Taiwan and Japan. I wanna give China another shot. I don't feel like I did it justice.
Strangely, I have been having this feeling for many years where I feel nostalgic and an intense longing to go somewhere that I don't believe I have ever been before. I feel the atmosphere of the place sometimes, in precious moments that are so easily broken and always seem so quick to end. I feel it for seconds to a minute at a time, usually months apart. I wonder if I'll ever find the place I'm looking for? I don't even really know what I'm saying at this point. I know what I want but I have no words to describe it. C'est la vie?~~
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