Still traveling

I'm so grateful to be traveling! I've really learned a lot. I experienced a lot of grief and loneliness when I moved from la to lv, but now I have also experienced turmoil in personal relationships. It's a long story, and far too private to publish online, but I have grown. Now, more than ever, I am dedicated to getting matched and blessed. I haven't messed up too much so it should still be possible. My experiences have reaffirmed my beliefs in my church, and I am ready to move forward in my life of faith.

What's always pissed me off at church is the grandstanding. Fucking up is a very personal issue, it doesn't have to be some public humiliation thing. Staying on the right path is a personal thing, so shut up and just do what you gotta do. Some second gen have unrealistic expectations of the world because they haven't gone out there by themselves. I don't mean going out with GPA, I mean alone. No one around you who you know. The world is cruel! It really really really is. You have to fend for yourself! No one is going to be there for you! Nobody!

You have to have VERY solid faith in your principles, and even if you do you absolutely MUST know your weaknesses!! It can be hard to know your weaknesses until you're alone and thrust into a difficult situation where you do make a wrong decision! It's easy to think what you'd do in a problem, but if you're not the actual situation where your conscious must make a decision, then you won't know your weaknesses!!

The point I really wanted to make is just that things are different when you're alone. Nobody to call or talk about your problems to. Nobody who grew up in any way similar to how you did. Nobody with the same morals and beliefs. When you are put in a rough spot, you're alone. When you mess up, you're alone. When you recover and come out stronger, you're alone. Every second of the day you walk around alone. The world is so cruel. People are twisted and want to use you and use you and use you until there's nothing left. To any girls who read this, don't be nice. Trust me, they don't deserve an ounce of your kindness.