So, last year, sometime during the month of may, I began drawing. I made it "My Hobby". I want to learn how to draw. I have slowly,, slowly improved. Looking back on it though, I think I talk more about drawing than practicing. I should practice more.
What else has happened? Well, I've been making bentos! They are really embarrassing and not so good looking, but at least I have started my cooking journey. I want to be a good wife for my husband and a good mother for my children. Wish me luck~!
I have set up and I am currently an active member of the BC's online who are looking for a spouse. I am usually approached about twice a month. I want to get better pictures of myself and perfect my bio, so I can really put my best foot forward and start approaching boys myself!
I want a husband who is Japanese. I have been dealt enough bs in my life that I hardly feel the need to defend why I want this, I grew up surrounded by kids who are Japanese. I am not. I have always had crushes on Asian boys, before I understood what a crush was. Now at the age of 21, I want to be able to say with certainty that this is what I want. I don't need to worry about any sort of judgement form other church members. All of my half/full Japanese friends are marrying Japanese members anyways. Why should it matter if I do the same??
What is hard for me though, is the competition! These Japanese girls are biologically smaller and more petite then I am! It's rough! I am almost as manly as a Japanese man!! I really have to try hard to be feminine!! Lord help me!!
Wednesday, November 6, 2019
Far in the future
Far off in the future, I wonder how the people of my time will be viewed. Will we be respected as elders? As the people who contributed to build the world they know? Or will we be seen as foolish? Not being able to solve things that aren't even problems in their age. What foods and items do we have that are actually poison to us? When will we as a society really start valuing families? Doesn't it seem so obvious though? Our reason to live is just like any other animal? To procreate? Why is it wrong to find such true happiness in that? Is that the wrong answer?
Why did we develop to get stuck on the first question of the test? Why do we exist? Since this is the internet, I would like for this post to exist in some sort of database for the rest of our time. I'm sure by the time I die it would be easy to save a ridiculous amount of information on a small physical location. In 2019 this is already possible, so I am excited to see how much I can save in the future. I'm sure it will be limitless. Will this be saved? Will the website I type this on still exist? will something like The Wayback Machine still exist? Will people know that the name of the website is a reference to the short Peabody and Sherman featured in Rocky an Bullwinkle? A TV show for kids in the 1960's?
This can be viewed as an "existential crisis", however, I am not worried. All of my ancestors were born before the internet, including my parents. Their thoughts as teenagers were not saved. That does not mean that they are valued any less. How disrespectful would it be to throw away all that has come before me, just because now we have tangible evidence of life and thought? My grandfather had spirit and life, but he passed away before the internet was invented. I will not disrespect him by only valuing what can be historically verified through saved documents.
Someday this will all sounds like boomer talk. Language itself is sure to have evolved passed what I am saying now. It almost feels like I should be writing in past tense. I was born the time when then internet came about. That's kind of old, huh? How far we will develop after this point, the year of our lord 2019, is unimaginable. Unimaginable indeed. Will motorcycles still exist? There is one revving up outside now. I'm sure that even if they don't, assholes will. Who revs their engine at midnight?
I hope that future generations will be able to understand that we were once their age too. I am 21 at the time of writing this. Some of my postings on this account are from high school. This is the first time,,, that i know of,,,,,,who can write a message from one young adult to another, thousands of years apart. Hopefully the internet still exists by then, and some internet culture archaeologist comes across the blogger platform. If not, I'm sure someone else will eventually. Thank you~!
Also,,, does anime still exist?? How did it die out??? I need to know!!! What about manga!! I love manga!! I pray manga will stay popular, and only fade after I die. I love it too much for it to go before then.
I too,,, watch captain kangaroo
Why did we develop to get stuck on the first question of the test? Why do we exist? Since this is the internet, I would like for this post to exist in some sort of database for the rest of our time. I'm sure by the time I die it would be easy to save a ridiculous amount of information on a small physical location. In 2019 this is already possible, so I am excited to see how much I can save in the future. I'm sure it will be limitless. Will this be saved? Will the website I type this on still exist? will something like The Wayback Machine still exist? Will people know that the name of the website is a reference to the short Peabody and Sherman featured in Rocky an Bullwinkle? A TV show for kids in the 1960's?
This can be viewed as an "existential crisis", however, I am not worried. All of my ancestors were born before the internet, including my parents. Their thoughts as teenagers were not saved. That does not mean that they are valued any less. How disrespectful would it be to throw away all that has come before me, just because now we have tangible evidence of life and thought? My grandfather had spirit and life, but he passed away before the internet was invented. I will not disrespect him by only valuing what can be historically verified through saved documents.
Someday this will all sounds like boomer talk. Language itself is sure to have evolved passed what I am saying now. It almost feels like I should be writing in past tense. I was born the time when then internet came about. That's kind of old, huh? How far we will develop after this point, the year of our lord 2019, is unimaginable. Unimaginable indeed. Will motorcycles still exist? There is one revving up outside now. I'm sure that even if they don't, assholes will. Who revs their engine at midnight?
I hope that future generations will be able to understand that we were once their age too. I am 21 at the time of writing this. Some of my postings on this account are from high school. This is the first time,,, that i know of,,,,,,who can write a message from one young adult to another, thousands of years apart. Hopefully the internet still exists by then, and some internet culture archaeologist comes across the blogger platform. If not, I'm sure someone else will eventually. Thank you~!
Also,,, does anime still exist?? How did it die out??? I need to know!!! What about manga!! I love manga!! I pray manga will stay popular, and only fade after I die. I love it too much for it to go before then.
I too,,, watch captain kangaroo
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