Cool Days

It's still winter break and I have a few more days left till school starts! I only have 3 CLASSES, which is craaaazy seeing as I always try to have 5 or 6. I just don't think I want to keep my major.
I started working at the ice cream shop again, but I was hoping to get a 2nd job as a waitress.

Now is a cool Sunday afternoon, so wind but the air is crisp. Perfect! Now only if I had a car to drive to the northern mountains. I'm almost kinda afraid to go there cause I'm sure I'd be disappointed to find just a big sand mountain, when my imagination leads to soo much more.

My breathing has gotten bad again ): I need to go to a doctor to get a prescription for more medicine. I don't like it! I always have a pressure on my chest that makes it hard to breathe all the time! I want to ruuuuun like I used to! My dream when I was little was to be an Olympic runner. Just some running would be fulfilling enough for me now.

I watched an anime called Devilman Crybaby the other day! It had me sobbing 😭😭 it was short, so I wanna write it down so I remember it in the future!

I haven't been posting pictures because the blogger phone app crashed when I try to upload one, but I'll make a post on my computer soon to add some vibrance back in here! Till next time!~~

NO!!!!¡!!!!!!!!

I looked back at my first posts in 2014 and realized how SAD and GROSS my recent posts have been. Sorry I've been in a bit of a SLUMP. What happened to the fun documentation of weird lil things???? Time for some FUN!

I FOR ONE, really like the Ugandan Knuckles meme. I know it's become popular and it's getting old, but I LOVE IT. it's so simple and light hearted a bunch of dudes just HAVIN SOME FUN.

What else have I been thinkin? B0yz are GROOSSSSSSS. aniMALS! not my brothers. Angels. But men without sisters? DISGUSTING. i SPIT ON YOU.

The Comfort of Other's Solitude

I so often feel lonely, as I assume most people feel. One thing that I find comforting though is thinking of all my friends, and how they too sit alone in their rooms. When we think of our friends we usually think of them when we're hanging out, when they're interacting with others and joking around. It's always good to remember that they go home and sit alone and focus on their phone, computer, or whatever distraction they prefer. Ever person you've ever met has been alone in a room before and has thought "oh... I'm all by myself".

Isn't that weird to think about? Your coworkers are alone too. Your church friends, your classmates. I just find it to be a very humanizing thought. It's so easy to just wallow in self pity, thinking you're all alone and have no friends while it seems everyone is posting them hanging out with other people all the time. But at the end of the day, these people are going home, just like you, to be alone.

Or maybe not, what do I know. I guess I wouldn't know how often they're actually alone if I'm not hanging out with them.

Anyways, my travels went well. Korea was a mess I am looking forward to for getting when Alzheimer's inevitably steals away my memories, but I really enjoyed Taiwan and Japan. I wanna give China another shot. I don't feel like I did it justice.

Strangely, I have been having this feeling for many years where I feel nostalgic and an intense longing to go somewhere that I don't believe I have ever been before. I feel the atmosphere of the place sometimes, in precious moments that are so easily broken and always seem so quick to end. I feel it for seconds to a minute at a time, usually months apart. I wonder if I'll ever find the place I'm looking for? I don't even really know what I'm saying at this point. I know what I want but I have no words to describe it. C'est la vie?~~