Work

I work at a well known own ice cream shop. It's not too bad, and I get free ice cream!~ I actually really enjoy working there on the daytime shifts when it's bright outside and I can take my time to make people's food really nice~

However, there is a bit of a down side. I have 2 nice coworkers, but the other 5 are only nice half of the time. And by nice I mean not as shitty as they are at other times.

There's my head manager, who I really struggled with at first, but she's came to be soomewhhaat familiar with me (she doesn't just not talk to me and just boss me around). When it gets busy though, she's quick to immediately blame me for anything that goes wrong.

Then surprisingly, the other manager who actually got me the job, is also really shitty. He was really nice when we'd talk on Snapchat, but when I met him irl (we'd first met irl and he had a crush on me so he was really nice to me), he just brushed me off. That's just his attitude towards me now. He's really unpredictable, sometimes laughing at my jokes and talking to me, other times ignoring me and treating me like he hates me.

The next one is the owners son, who is extremly rude to everyone. Since his dad owns the place, he's always power tripping, bossing around everyone like crazy. He speaks to me like I'm mentally retarded, and since he knows I don't party/date he looks down on me and is always really condescending.

Then, the worst bitch. I hate this girl so much. Completely unprovoked, this girl hated me from the get-go. She ignores me all the time and rolls her eyes when I talk to her. Every single time I try talking to her I'm extremly polite and I try to be outgoing. I always say please, thank you, and excuse me whenever she tells me what to do, and I've never been rude to her so I have nooo idea what her problem with me is at all. And she's nice to everyone else, including the other new girl, who she gave a nickname and talks to a lot.

Then, the other new girl. She was nice at first, but she the rude bitch who I mentioned above got her on her side. Now, it's a 50/50 with who I'm working with. If I'm working with the 2 nice people, then she's nice to me. If the bitch is there, then she ignores me straight to my face and talks shit about me to the bitch and when I come around the corner they go quiet and giggle to each other. Today she counted tips and she gave me less tips then everyone else. After she counted them I asked her how many tips we got total and she mumbled really quietly so I asked what twice and she ignored me right in front of me. So I asked the manager (the snapchat one) what the tip count was and he also gave me a huge attitude before telling me. I knew she was gonna give me less so that's why I asked what the total amount was.

I just really miss living in LA where I had friends and life was perfectly fine. I miss it I miss it I miss it.

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Today I only had 1 class and I finished my homework in a couple of hours!~ I feel sooo free~~ it feels so good to get back online again and just do what I used to (when I had time).
The weather has actually been amazing recently!! Like 77°!!! It's been wonderful, but I'm afraid I've been so busy that I've had no time to enjoy it. Today, however, I did have time so I chilled out on our patio couch and took a nap. I was having a really weird scary dream, and I always write down my dreams, but this one was a continuation of another dream and it was just too complicated. I wish I could remember it now!
I don't have as many dreams as I did 2015/2016, but I think it's still much more often than when other people talk about their dreams. Actually there's been quite a few incidents recently where I completely confuse what happened in a dream and what actually happened. I can't stop daydreaming either!! I love it but also it's made me dumb since I've never paid any attention at all ever in class. I finish my homework and on the quiz the next day it's like my brain has thrown all the information away!! I remember absolutely nothing and I just stare at the problem like "what on earth is it asking of me I've never seen these symbols"!!
On a serious note, while life has been pretty good lately (other than my math class which I'm terribly failing), I feel lonely ): it seems like everyone has friends, and I've forgotten what it's like to hang out with people. What are you supposed to do? Do you just sit and talk? Are you supposed to put on a movie? I try to remember what I did with my friends in LA, and I think it's maybe too childish to do any of that now, but I have nothing else to go off of!! Anyways, I just really miss the feeling of having friends. I forgot about it and learned to detach myself from the feeling a while ago, but the other day I was people watching at my school and I saw some girls all sitting together talking. Why am I so unable to do that? When I see my LA friends at this church camp that comes around once a year, I am incredibly nervous, and sometimes I am too overwhelmed when I get to be a part of hanging out with people that I have to excuse myself to the bathroom to cry for a quick second. One time, I forgot who with, but within the last year or 2, I was hanging out with some church kids in my area and I cried a little when we were in the car all together. It's such a good feeling to have friends!!
I remember now what else triggered me wanting to have friends!! On Snapchat someone posted a video of him and all his friends and sisters friends hiding in a van with a birthday cake (it was a surprise for his sister who was getting picked up from school), and when the sister went to the van they all surprised her and sang her happy birthday. I think I would die!!! I don't think I've ever had that many friends, but even 1 person would be enough at this point.
My birthday is on the 23rd and I have no one to celebrate it with ): maybe I could invite some people, and make friends like that? I want to, but I really truly don't think I'm entertaining enough. Maybe if I invite enough people they can just talk to each other? But then I won't be making friends. Idk, I'll probably just bike somewhere and eat ice cream while I stare at the sky/mountains. They're very pretty here.