Going North for the Winter

It's strange but for the past 3 or so years, everytime it becomes winter I feel a strong need to head north. Not like up to Canada or anything like that, but just something is waiting for me up north of Las Vegas. On my way home when I rode the bus in high school I could never take my eyes of the mountains in the north. I once even tried biking to them with a friend. I think a lot of the pictures I even used to post here were from a tiny hill near my house where I can get a good view of the northern mountains. The sunset looks especially pretty on them during winter.
I've been wondering all this time what it is that could make me want to go to those mountains, when there are other mountains closer to us. I don't even like mountains all that much. They're always cold and it makes my ears hurt a lot and there's always so many bugs everywhere. Today I was thinking that maybe it reminds me of my friends house in LA. She lived in Arcadia and from her house there was a nice view of the mountains north of her house.

Anyways, I actually got a surprising amount of presents for Christmas. One brother gave me a kindle and another gave me hot cheetos. I got a blanket and a cool poster among other small items.

I signed up for 6 classes this upcoming semester! Wish me luck 😤

I absolutly love my house and my family, but I'm also feeling a growing need to move out. Even if just for a bit, I feel like I should maybe study abroad or something of the sort. I need independence and to feel responsible for myself!!

Merry Christmas!~

It's christmas!! It's been a pretty good day~ we opened presents in the morning and there were a lot more than I expected! I got headphones, but they're very low quality and they bring down the music quality by a lot, so I'll probably just stick to my broken headphones.

A really good friend of mine from LA messaged me today! We talked just for a bit, and she seems to be doing okay. I haven't seen her since summer 2015. I still miss my friend group in LA (one lives in Norway now!!). They'll always have a very special place in my heart.

I can't wait to get matched!!! I totally feel too young and want to live by myself and everything, but I can't help myself from wanting to be matched. Ahh how many more years? ;;A;;

Writing here makes me feel better~~

Animal crackers in my soup

I was feeling a bit empty again but then I looked over on my desk I have my Christmas presents that I'm going to give to my church friends on Sunday and thinking about that made me feel a bit better.

As for my school friends, we have a group chat and they talk a lot but I only drop in occasionally when there's a chance to make a joke. Last week one of the dudes got dumped to he was telling us that the girl said that "it was too fast and she wasn't ready for such a serious relationship" and something like she dates while thinking of marriage. In my head I was thinkin like damn that's right girl but my friends in the group chat got upset over her, calling her a "prude virgin" and other rude things. I was quite offended as they know I'm a virgin because of my religious beliefs and they know about how I'm going to get matched and everything.
However, it did make me expand more on the thought that we all live in entirely different worlds. I once heard somewhere that everyone is different, as we are to the world. Through our experiences and how we were raised we've all developed different ways of accepting and receiving love, different senses of humor, different outlooks on life and our own futures. Finding someone who syncs with you is very rare, and I'm grateful to have a friend who is, for the most part, on the same page as me. We actually have veerryy different opinions and we often get into small arguments, but we perceive much of the world similarly, so we can understand one another.
Also I'm very upset at my school friends. We have such different points of views on the world, and I find that my view differs from theirs a great deal because of my religion. I was hurt that they degraded this girl to be just a "prude virgin", and I find it just so strange because I view them as people who have very weak self discipline  and little moral standing that they fuck whoever they want like a bunch of animals. This of course I'd never tell them because I know that they don't see the world like I do and wouldn't understand me, so of course I'm hurt when they say something that to them may be true but to me is really morally trashy.
Only ever having 1 partner is such a beautiful thing and I think it's asinine that the world is so ass backwards and horny that it's become completely socially acceptable and actually the norm to have been in multiple relationships.