Still so young~

Ahh I wish I was just a little bit older!! I really wanna get matched already ): Of course I understand that I'm still way too young, and of course I'd never want to just skip into the future and miss all of the time in between, but I still can't shake the my feeling of want. I'm afraid that as I grow older, my future husband might make more mistakes. What if he can't help but flirt with other girls just to give him some sort of release? People have always seen it as very admirable of me and other bc's to be able to wait for a relationship until we are matched, but I've never understood why until recently. I've always thought it was obvious why we'd wait, since the payoff is so much greater. But now I can understand why it's actually difficult. Bc's are living testaments to the human spirit.
I can't help it when I crush on someone, but again I've never seen it as a problem not to act on my feelings. As I've grown a little older and I've come to have some confidence in myself, it's become harder not to act.i used to avoid my crushes like the plague, where as now I can be friends with them and actually kind of hang out with them. It's driving me crazy!! It makes me so sad!! Like I'm soo close!! One time my biggest high school crush said I was cute (a couple times actually) but I just cut the conversation off quickly after. Now, it's like I'm sooo clooose but I can't move, and it kind of hurts to be unable to say or do anything and just watch them fall in love with other people. My crush tells me about his gf and he posts pictures and it makes me so sad but I just have to keep saying she's so cute and that I'm so happy for them.
I keep telling myself that it'll all happen someday~someday~someday~
Someday my prince will come 😂💖☄

Busy Bee

I've been so busy lately! 2nd semester has started along with my new job! I'm taking 6 classes, and honestly they're kind of hard. My job isn't giving me much time to study either, if I want to sleep. I'm taking and into engineering course and I'm already doing quite poorly. And my major is in engineering!

As for the job, it's going pretty smoothly. It's at a very cute 50s style ice cream shop near my house. The ice cream Is good, and I get it for free so I definitely take advantage of that. It can be a bit stressful when we have many customers, and the clean up work is physical work that I am not used to, but I think it all builds character.

Also for the record can I just say that I love being a girl? I love cute things and sweet things and dressing up and acting delicate~ it's just wonderful~ I can't wait to get matched!

I really hope I'll be able to balance school and work!! It's tough and it's only the beginning!!! I'm afraid for midterms and finals ;;A;;