Music Update 3

first and far most? for most?

hello?? anyone out there?? I'm alive!! haven't posted in forever!!

first and (for?far?) most, the sky is lookin good as ever out here in the desert. 

damn!! I had so many really negative and embarrassing posts on here?? I'm glad I got that out at the time, but I think that there's no point in keeping that stuff up anymore, so I've taken some posts down. I was such a downer!! It's really not very hard for people to change their attitudes :0

So at the end of may, my family visited San Francisco! I was reeeaallyy excited, but honestly, I did feel a liiittllee disappointed. I'm sure if I had more time to find the right places I would've enjoyed my trip more. Also it was so cold??? My ears hurt just thinking about it ((they were hurting sooooo much from the cold))

Alcatraz!!!

I've also finally attained my first job! It's at a daycare, and it's extremly tough. A lot of the kids here (especially since it's Vegas) come from broken families. There's one kid that we're all really struggling with. Apparently the mom had 3 kids, all in which she was doing CRACK WHILE SHE WAS PREGNANT. Like are you insane?? That is sooo cruel! The kids were all adopted by a very sweet family here, and I wish them all the best. However, due to their biological mother's mistreatment to them, they have some serious behavioral issues that the teachers just can't handle. As much as I understand where they come from and I want to help and love them, it's been very difficult for me. The middle child throws non stop tantrums and is always screaming and knocking over anything in sight and throwing things, and I'm so afraid it'll hit one of the other children. The other day he swung a notebook in my eye while 2 middle aged teachers tried to control him. And a lot of the time he literally is just unable to comprhend what we're saying, which must be frustrating to him as well, but it's just too much to deal with him. The main teacher/my boss always assigns me to take care of him when he's acting up (literally never stops at all) and she always makes me feel so inadequate when I am unable to control him. I'm trying my best!